Okay big weekend ahead but it sure isn’t stopping me staying up late.
Iike what the fuck.
Youre coming into town. Thought I could actactually sweat you off but I cant. Im like so anxious, woah. Your touch. Laugh. Smile. Conversations. Everything alright but oh mu god. You have kids, and youre a wonderful fucking father, youre a genuinely a good person to me and I love it. I believe in soul-mates. Two spirits in love will truely stay in love forerver, it Will take so much time to show you and remind you how hard they were to ask out and just make it even greater. Friendships man, love. Its all one big thing and honestly the ocean can’t compare.
Im so young and so eager to strive for so much, I have dreams that I dream of actually being able to and I mean of course no matter what I will but like I said. Im well in 3 days will be 19. So as much as I love you. Ive got to let you go and its not forever, just until we meet again. Because im so young the cute little love I experienced before was real but it does not compare. And you being unbelievably too cool has rubbed off on me. You actually inspire to never stop learning, no matter, never stop! Like I thrive for criticism so I can help myself ( under the right conditions ) You have helped me love myself and I was trying to begin that, but you sir have impacted me so much. Alright you have kids. Holy fuck. I couldn’t live with You and have sex in the same house as your kids by two others. Like major turn off and not my style. Thats baggage and im sorry for saying it so bluntly but I mean I am right. And you know some may call me so many things and you might even judge a little but dude if I hadnt talked to mysmyself over and over again and made sure that I was one hundred with everything I feel. I accept it. And dude I know youre going to. Youre that cool. But youre feelings are gonna be what bugs you. Thats what im afraid. Cutting it off before you or I get too attached. Im not down, not ready. I dont want to commit, i enjoy relationshiips and am down but for you and I. I cant.
Goddamn I can go for days.
This weekend tho.
Lol rollin the night before tho.
when she was 7, a boy pushed her on the playground
she fell headfirst into the dirt and came up with a mouthful of gravel and lines of blood chasing each other down her legs
when she told her teacher what happened, she laughed and said ‘boys will be boys honey don’t let it bother you
he probably just thinks you’re cute’
but the thing is,
when you tell a little girl who has rocks in her teeth and scabs on her knees that hurt and attention are the same
you teach her that boys show their affection through aggression
and she grows into a young woman who constantly mistakes the two
because no one ever taught her the difference
‘boys will be boys’
‘that’s how he shows his love’
and bruises start to feel like the imprint of lips
she goes to school with a busted mouth in high school and says she was hit with a basketball instead of his fist
the one adult she tells scolds her
‘you know he loses his temper easily
why the hell did you have to provoke him?’
so she shrinks
folds into herself, flinches every time a man raises his voice
by the time she’s 16 she’s learned her job well
be quiet, be soft, be easy
don’t give him a reason
but for all her efforts, he still finds one
‘boys will be boys’ rings in her head
‘boys will be boys
he doesn’t mean it
he can’t help it’
she’s 7 years old on the playground again
with a mouth full of rocks and blood that tastes like copper love
because boys will be boys baby don’t you know
that’s just how he shows he cares
she’s 18 now and they’re drunk
in the split second it takes for her words to enter his ears they’re ruined
like a glass heirloom being dropped between the hands of generations
she meant them to open his arms but they curl his fists and suddenly his hands are on her and her head hits the wall and all of the goddamn words in the world couldn’t save them in this moment
she touches the bruise the next day
boys will be boys
aggression, affection, violence, love
how does she separate them when she learned so early that they’re inextricably bound, tangled in a constant tug-of-war
she draws tally marks on her walls ratios of kisses to bruises
one entire side of her bedroom turns purple, one entire side of her body
boys will be boys will be boys will be boys
when she’s 20, a boy touches her hips and she jumps
he asks her who the hell taught her to be scared like that and she wants to laugh
doesn’t he know that boys will be boys?
it took her 13 years to unlearn that lesson from the playground
so I guess what I’m trying to say is
i will talk until my voice is hoarse so that my little sister understands that aggression and affection are two entirely separate things
baby they exist in difference universes
my niece can’t even speak yet but I think I’ll start with her now
don’t ever accept the excuse that boys will be boys
don’t ever let him put his hands on you like that
if you see hate blazing in his eyes don’t you ever confuse it with love
baby love won’t hurt when it comes
you won’t have to hide it under long sleeves during the summer
the only reason he should ever reach out his hand
is to hold yours
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(And Why That Is The Stupidest Thing You Could Ever Say To A Little Girl)
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